I Use it As A Diary...CAN I ASK A QUESTION?!

I want to use it as a diary because now i want someone to talk with but now Iam in my room and think and think and think...It's not really a problem but i became confused in what my friends said to me...and in their side I know that they care for me why they tell me (its about my boyfriend)hay...it's really an old issue but i know it's true and it's possible to happen...:(
. I know that problem is just a trial that given by God but sometimes trials makes us feel alone...
. i know that in a relationship trust is very important in a relationship but can you really trust the person that you can't see and talk regularly?!
. can you love a person in a long time while you too far and now the only communication you have was text?!
. can you give you fully concentrate to what you do if in your mind is the man you want to see, talk and be with you on that time?!
. can you you answer his promise if in your mind is your not sure if you can still love him?!
. is being busy is an excuse why he can't contact you?!
. whom you will trust?! a person you love or a friend who see and always their in your ups and down?!
. is that ok to ask for a break up when your tired and always sad in your relationship even though you love that person?!
. CAN you still love a person if you know that your relationship is not good or if you relation was in a wrong time...?!
. but if i end it up, would you be happy?!
. would i be more relax and free from worries?!


I LOVE YOU GUYS, I WISH THAT OUR FRIENSHIP WOULD END UP TILL WE GET OLD...and its ended up here..........